Go do. Go drop everything you have going for you and do something completely out of the ordinary for yourself. Think about your life for a moment. Give it more than a couple seconds; really think. Close your eyes and focus only on your heartbeat. Do you feel uneasy? Restrained? If you feel like something is in the least bit wrong, stop. Are you really doing exactly what you want to be doing in this moment? Or do you feel like you will be happy eventually because this moment exists purely to lead you to that moment, moments down the road, when you will finally achieve someone else’s version of success?
It’s a common dilemma; a pretty serious one if you ask me. It’s one that makes us millennials feel the need to constantly question who we are, as if who we once were is hiding somewhere in our old facebook albums. Our generation tends to work in spurts; we have spurts of energy, spurts of motivation, of inspiration, of happiness. Very rarely do we feel a consistent sense of these various spurts internally.
“It is only in the context of ultimate nonexistence
that actual existence makes any sense at all.”
In the sense that “emptiness is empty,” the world, our universe, does not exist. Although it exists in the conventional sense, our realm of life is only one dimension that is constantly recreated by our thoughts, which are a product of our mind, which is a part of the spectrum of existence that many would argue is real. Although nothing comes from our mind, everything comes from our mind. “Usually we think of our mind as receiving impressions and experiences from outside, but that is not a true understanding of our mind. The true understanding is that the mind includes everything; when you think something comes from outside it means only that something appears in your mind.”
They say uncertainty is the driving force of America, maybe humanity. Fear is only a hinderance. We have to learn how to fly without wind underneath our wings. We can’t look back, only forwards for memories can be a hinderance too. Work to engrain the lessons you have learned from your mistakes in you so they are a permanent part of yourself. It is no good keeping memories inside your head- you must engrain them in your heart.
Accept the motions of the earth but never be satisfied with the first revolving layer. Generation after generation, we’ve made it harder for us to obtain the truth. We burry it deeper and deeper within our existence, the ultimate treasure at the core of the knot which some of us spend our entire lifetimes attempting to unravel.
I spent this summer searching for an answer. The question was ever-changing, but the intent remained the same. I thought I just wanted to figure myself out, but I discovered I was really attempting to figure the world out. You see, I am a person who is rarely satisfied. With herself, and with life. I’ve always believed I can achieve higher, love stronger, connect deeper and, most of all, live happier.
There’s a story about a little boy (John Lennon) who was given an assignment to write down what he wanted to be when she grew up. He wrote “happy.” The teacher told him that he didn’t understand the assignment. In response, he told the teacher: “you don’t understand life.”